Okay so I’m not sure what, if anything, is stopping me from using this iframe layout as a blog but I guess I’ll find out. Sorta feels like I cheated getting so much help for building the skeleton of the site but at this point I’m figuring things out on my own, unearthing sealed knowledge from memories of the web design class I took in 2018. I will be sure to add my image and graphics resources but for now credits for my layout are in my footer.
It’s finally hot again and I am LOVING IT. It took a few years of living with actual, changing seasons to figure it out but I hate winter, I hate the cold and darkness that it brings and will gladly take the opposite no matter how much the humidity fucks with my hair and the stench of trash day morning makes me gag. Not like Tokyo is a smelly city, really, but my love of perfume has cursed me with a more sensitive sense of smell in recent years. And my hair is almost always fucked anyway so what do I care.
As this site comes together I’m looking forward to having a new project-thing to fiddle with other than the novel which is, well, coming along but not coming along in a good way. I don’t even know what I mean by that. This same idea was my graduate thesis a couple years ago but it wasn’t right so I started over, now it’s going all right although I lack the motivation I once had. I think taking it seriously as a piece I wish to professionally publish injects this unease into the whole thing that was never present when I was first working on it long long ago, when it wasn’t anything at all but word doodles. Oh how far we’ve come. I’ve also identified that a key element of it coming together was my belief that relationships between people were a sort of magic in of themselves, and I’m afraid THAT idea has died along with the light in my eyes as time passed. Immature cynicism, I know, but I’m working on it. It does not make this stupid book any easier to work on, however.
May is such a whirlwind because many of my loved ones have birthdays this month, last week(end) was for celebrating the Tauruses Snow and Teddy plus two more I couldn’t physically meet with, now we’ve hit Gemini season and Luna is right around the corner. Two of Teddy’s immediate family are also Geminis born a couple of days after him (he’s a special star with his sun at 29 degrees Taurus conjunct his moon at 5 degrees Gemini! A luminary sign inconjunction to compliment my own!).
I hope I don’t give this up. I hope I can actually make something of it and not let it fall behind me as another thing I outgrew. It's late as I go over this again (It's techincally yesterday's entry) and I don't feel like injecting the proper emoji code so for now, enjoy this plain & simple first entry.